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Look at Any Clock Telling Time; Elliott/Briar
Topic Started: Jan 7 2013, 02:32:22 AM (731 Views)
Elliott Fix
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*Kara; s:c | w:p
He tried hard not to interrupt; she had let him talk, so now it was his turn to let her. It was hard, though, because there were so many things he wanted to say and they just got eaten up by the next things she said. So he listened and held her close instead.

As it turned out, the last thing she said hurt the worst, so it turned out to be all he could say anything to, anyway. He felt entirely misrepresented. His insecurity about her felt very justified in this light. "It is mad. Everything is. You're right, you're right- but you're wrong about it not being my choice." Elliott was nothing if not deliberate. "I chose to be a politician, Briar, and it's always like this. Things are crazy now, but they just pick other things to be crazy about even when nothing world changing is happening. I promise you, I chose this on purpose. The late nights, the events, the bloody mad constituents e-mailing me about bridges they don't think are structurally sound. Nobody forced me to run for election... twice.

"You had better believe I chose to be in the thick of this revolution, too. I choose everyday to make a better world. And I do that for Ruby. What I do isn't more important than taking care of you or Ruby. Right now, they are the same thing. I'm the only wizard in parliament and me, my dad, and a few other people are the only reason your daughter isn't on some sort of government registry right now. Don't tell me I didn't chose this, or that I feel terribly for missing out. I don't.

"I spend more time with Ruby than her natural father- and that's not a judgement on Kevin, that's just what's in the custody agreement. So I feel really good about what I do and the amount of parenting time I get, actually. I know you want me home more- but that is not going to happen. I already gave up one job for you and Ruby, which is more than most MPs can say. I was happy to do it- truly, mergers and acquisitions aren't my favorite thing. The money would be nice, but my time with you is more valuable than that. Parliament only sits for about 30 weeks a year. That's twenty-two weeks where I don't have to deal with their craziness. That's something like forty percent of the year. This is... this is what I'm talking about. About not feeling good enough for you. Forty percent and it's still not enough. No other job can give me the kind of time away Parliament does. I spend a lot of time working with my constituents during the longer recesses, I know. But that's what the house in Altrincham is for. And I can get away with taking Ruby to the office there. I just... need you to understand that living my life the way I am isn't what's upsetting me. It's your judgement on it that is. You keep saying you understand that I have to be away, or late...but I don't think you mean that. I think you want to be understanding about it, but in your perfect world I would be home more, no matter what the cost, so you keep projecting your feelings onto me. You said you see how it hurts me... but really, what you see is how it upsets you.

"So, here's what I understand: I understand if you want to wait to have another baby until it's safe for wizards to be out in public. That's very sensible. But if you won't have children with me because I am not home enough, then I suppose we may never have children. I love you and if that's how it has to be, I will learn to accept that. Just like I hope you can learn to accept the fact that the time I spend away from you is as deliberate as the time I spend with you."
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She buried her face in the crook of his neck. She was so tired. It was exhausting to have conversations like this with him, when he constantly misunderstood even her best intentions. Any attempt to clarify on her part only made for more frustration. She wanted to explain, but she didn't even know what to say now. He had a way of backing her into a corner with her own misconstrued words, and it hurt that he didn't even seem to be trying to understand her.

There was nothing she could even do to respond anymore but apologize, so she did. "I'm sorry."

She closed her eyes and that was all she said for a long moment. "All I need is you, and it's hard to realize that I haven't done a good job of making sure you know that. I'm going to try harder to show you, and I will try, I will really try, to let you take care of me. Because I think that will help me convince myself that I deserve you, too. And then maybe we can stop always worrying about losing each other and we won't have to waste time being insecure because we'll just know."

That was really the best she could do. She kissed him softly and leaned her forehead against his for a second. "I could really use that tea now," she added quietly, not moving to make it happen.
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Elliott Fix
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"Me too," Elliott replied, holding her close. He felt the same about everything- about being sorry, about only needing her, about trying harder... and about needing tea.

He reached his arm back behind them and turned the stove back on. He wrapped his arms back around Briar and squeezed her tight, kissed her head, and then loosened his grip. "And maybe some of that cake."
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Briar Fix
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Kelci; muggle
She wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him just below his ear. "Cake in bed," she suggested. She was tired of sitting on the ground, now. "Feel free to carry me."
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