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- Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
| Would you lie with me and just forget the world?; Rated E for everybody until I change it. | |
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| Topic Started: Jun 17 2009, 08:03 AM (105 Views) | |
| Gracie | Jun 17 2009, 08:03 AM Post #1 |
 
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OK this is a Mer/Der based fic. We had rotten weather here this past week and ditched my online time so I thought I might write....This is pretty much my virgin fan fic.....so if it sucks...I shall stop and if it doesn't I will continue.....The time lines don't exactly fit Grey's....Hahn and Arizona are both there......and I might add other characters...I am not real sure...it is a work in progress.....or not...You let me know. =) |
This banner was beautifully made my Randirella and yeah she'll know what I mean....=)  
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| Gracie | Jun 17 2009, 08:05 AM Post #2 |
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Meredith slipped quietly into the maintenance closet, one of her favorite places to hide from the prying eyes of Seattle Grace. She slid down the floor and prayed that the tears wouldn’t come but it was hard to walk around with a smile on her face when she felt like she was a pariah at her own place of work. News traveled fast at Seattle Grace, the bad news that is. She knew everyone knew her relationship with Derek was over. Everyone knew that she was “THE ELLIS GREY” child. Sometimes her feet felt so small in comparison to those she seemed to be destined to fill. She stood up and wiped a silent tear from her cheek and was determined to go back out there and be the robot she had been for the last few weeks. The functioning robot that most people never seemed to notice other than Cristina and Bailey. Bailey she knew suspected things had fallen apart with Derek but she didn’t say anything and Meredith was trying so hard not to make a mistake and have her call her on it. She knew then that she would address it with her and at this point she didn’t want to address it with anyone. She slid down to the floor again thinking about how broken she must have always been but knowing now she was simply shattered. She couldn’t let Derek see her like this. She needed to look happy. She was so tired of being labeled as dark and twisty when only a fraction of them really knew her. She couldn’t deal looking at Rose anymore. Their interaction was even worse because she knew that while Derek was looking at her, he wasn’t looking at her the same way….was he? The questions flooded her mind. She knew she had to get out of there and as soon as she opened that door she has to be the new and improved…bright and shiny Meredith Grey. Exhale. Count to 5 and she quietly slipped back into the daily grind of the hospital. She scoped out the surgery board looking to see when her surgery with Hahn was and what she might be doing today. She knew she needed to be on top of her game. She saw nothing. As she was walking off a nurse put a heart transplant on the board. Cristina was scrubbing in. Meredith looked at the board in disbelief as she also wrote a Meningioma resection on the board and placed her name under his name. She felt her stomach flip as she saw their names together. She loved Neuro, but she hated scrubbing in with him. Him. That thought alone bothered her. He was no longer Derek. Those surgeries were the worst though. The three of them in the OR and the happy eyes over the scrub masks between the two of him made her want to give them both a craniotomy. Bailey walked by about that time. “I thought your assignment was Cardio today with Hahn Grey?” Meredith looked and her she thought so too. Hahn then walked up and told Bailey she had requested Yang be with her today and informed Meredith could work with Shepherd. Bailey laughed because she knew that Hahn was trying to work with Yang out of spite. Bailey looked again at Meredith and told her “Shepherd it is then Grey, he has a Meningioma resection that will be up this afternoon so eat, because you are looking a little green and be back up here ready to scrub in.” Meredith smiled at Bailey, nodded and then headed off in the direction of the cafeteria muttering in her head that the Attendings must simply LIKE to torture them. By the time she got to the cafeteria she knew she wasn’t hungry. She knew in an hour she’d be nauseated by the mere site of it so she went to the on-call room to try to get her thoughts under control before she got paged. She loved Neuro but she hated the atmosphere there now. It made her sick. No sooner than she got settled her pager went of. Meredith couldn’t help but smile and think “Show Time.” Meredith hit the scrub room with none other than Dr. Shepherd himself. If she didn’t know better she could of sworn that there was surprise in those eyes of his. Meredith: Dr Shepherd Derek: Hello Dr.Grey Meredith: Hahn wants to torture Cristina today so I will be scrubbing in with you. A irritated Derek: Why wasn’t I informed?? A frustrated Meredith: Derek I am not an attending so you will simply have to take that up with Hahn. I simply do as I am told and if you’d rather me not scrub in I can promise you I would rather be in the clinic diagnosing colds than here (her eyes roll downward to the sink then back up to him) with you. Derek: I’m sorry. That was uncalled for on my part. I would love for you to scrub in. Meredith: Well thank you for your blessings Dr. Shepherd I shall see you in the OR. Meredith couldn’t help but roll her eyes as she passed by him to enter the OR. She heard his extended sigh as she left. Did he think she relished moments like this? Less than a month ago he was with her. Then he was gone and for once in her life she didn’t take full blame. That made her angry with Derek. It felt good to be angry with him. She just needed an ounce of time and he couldn’t give it to her. So here they were. He was with Rose. So what if he didn’t like angry Meredith? It wasn’t like she liked it yet here she was scrubbing in on a woman she knew nothing about, with another she knew far too much about and wishing she simply were somewhere else where she didn’t have to think. As if on queue in pops Rose and then Derek stating, “It was a beautiful day…” The rest she just tuned out. Meredith really couldn’t listen to them droning on and on during surgery. She did her best to drown it out. Their chatter annoyed her. The surgery seemed to last for a lot longer than the four hours it really was. At the end Meredith was doing her best not to cry and was reminding herself to breathe. Derek left her to close up. This was a task she had done so many times before that she simply did it and tried not to think about Rose being here still. She was thankful for that confidence because her head was simply cloudy. She was ready to escape. Meredith: She is closed up and her vitals are normal. Derek: Rose would you please see to it that Mrs. Reynolds gets to recovery While I tell her family all went well? Rose: I’m on top of it Dr. Shepherd. Meredith could help but mutter to her “I am sure you are.” Rose: Pardon me??? Derek: Please take her to recovery. He glanced over at Meredith with a face that in her more formidable years with him might of made Meredith shrink back from the conflict. This time she merely smiled. Rose turned to glance at them both as she rolled her patient out of the room. Deep down inside she knew he loved her still. That scared her because she had fallen too. She knew she shouldn’t of but it was too late. After Rose left Derek looked at Meredith with plans to talk to her and then she smiled at him once again. Before he could even get a word out Meredith had already exited and was cleaning up. He caught up with her in there. Derek: We need to talk. Meredith: The surgery went well Dr. Shepherd is there something I need to brush up on? Derek: You know that is not what I meant. Meredith: As far as I am concerned you made your decision and I can live with it without talking about it. Derek: The tension in the operating room? Meredith: That is what happens when an attending sleeps with an intern and his scrub nurse. Derek: Dammit Meredith! Meredith: Damn you Derek. Do you think I like all this? For the record I don’t so somewhere up in that Neuro head of yours you need to understand that it wasn’t ME this time. It wasn’t me. Try to dissect that one. Once again Meredith was glad she was angry. Angry made her not to cry when she turned to walk out of the scrub room. It made her not turn around to see if he was staring at her. It made her round the corner and head down the hall and hit the stairs without looking back. It made her swing into the nearest bathroom she could find and throw up. |
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This banner was beautifully made my Randirella and yeah she'll know what I mean....=)
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| Natalie | Jun 17 2009, 07:34 PM Post #3 |
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Aww love it more when you can 
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| McGrey | Jun 18 2009, 05:38 PM Post #4 |
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way to go Mer! Derek needs to figure out soon that he made a rush decision when he left Meredith for Rose. Especially when Meredith seems to have something to her stomach... or not 
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| Gracie | Jun 22 2009, 10:14 AM Post #5 |
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Dousing her face with water Meredith looked in the mirror at her reflection and just shook her head. She hated that he did this to her. That she let him. What on earth was she ever going to do? The anger goes away and she is left feeling like an empty shell. She couldn’t live like this. As she was about to leave Miranda walked in. Meredith quickly dried off her face. Bailey: Grey are you sick? Meredith: I am just not feeling 100% today but I am fine to work. I just needed to cool of. Bailey: It is 30 degrees outside and looking like snow and you are trying to convince me you needed to come in here to cool off yet you are white as a sheet? Meredith’s shoulders just dropped… Meredith: Derek and I are over, he is not McDreamy and he is sleeping with a scrub nurse. We all just shared a surgery and I put on my Yang face and finished it but it is just all a bit too much sometimes. Bailey: You see the problems with dating your superiors now Grey? Meredith: I know….I know…..I Bailey simply cuts her off….. Bailey: I am not here to lecture you. I am here to try and help. I knew what was going on already. This is my bathroom too. I know you never knew that. This is the one I come to when I am trying to keep my home life separated from my work life. I know you know my marriage is hanging by a thread. I don’t even date a doctor and the whole hospital knows so I wanted to let you know that even though you all think I am a drill sergeant a doctor younger than me made me realize not too long ago that you have to feel to be a good doctor and sometimes it is hard to divide the two. Bailey hugged Meredith then…. Meredith was speechless and she wrapped her arms around her and cried…. Bailey rubbed Meredith’s back and continued talking to her: I am not the unfeeling person you all think I am….. Meredith pulled away to look her in the eye and this time she interrupted Miranda… I never thought that. Which is why I had faith in your choice to get out of General surgery and switch to Pediatric surgery. Do you not realize that you have been more of a mother to me than my own? Miranda then cried too…..Meredith continued… I know Tuck doesn’t understand but I do….You are tough…You expect a lot but yet you give a lot too….I was afraid to tell you for fear you’d think I had failed…I knew you were disappointed in me the night you caught Derek and I in the car but when it all worked out I think you were happy for me…and I didn’t want to let you know I failed….. Miranda cut in….. You never failed Grey….I know you don’t want to hear it but that chapter in your life isn’t closed. Don’t write you’re ending yet….Stay tough….I know that man loves you…… Meredith: and Tuck loves you….. Bailey: Which is why we stay…and sometimes we might have to put on another face than the one we are feeling but it all works out Grey…I have seen that….if Tuck doesn’t stick with me with my choice then I will move on….. Meredith: and if Derek marries Rose I will move on too…..I have to….. Bailey: Yes you will but we will get through it…. They hugged again……Meredith thanked her…..Miranda told her no thanks were needed…. Meredith: What do I do now? Bailey: I think maybe you should go to the clinic. You are awfully pale and you just don’t look right to me. Meredith: I haven’t slept well in awhile. I’m ok. Bailey: Then at least go to an on-call room and I will give Shepherd strict rules not to page you unless it is necessary but I know Neuro was your area of interest and I can’t lose one of my kids because of an attending so we need to work that out if that is what you decide on, because as much of an ass as he may be he is one brilliant ass who you will learn a lot from. Meredith: I am going to work on that part. I think I can do it if I could just get a bit of sleep and a little bit of thought to prepare for the surgeries mentally. Bailey started to leave and told her she would see that Meredith was not paired with Derek for the next week….Meredith thought that sounded like a plan and headed to the third floor to lie down. She just felt like a train had ran over her and she couldn’t shake it. |
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