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| The bad stuff; Suicide, cutting, smoking, etc | |
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| AiOrikasa | Apr 13 2006, 09:56 AM Post #136 |
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Good for you. ^_^You know what is bad.....my father he leaves us almost every week to go to a buissness trip. I miss him. =_= A tear is coming. |
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| tricksterchild | Apr 13 2006, 02:55 PM Post #137 |
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Awwww.....poor AO. My dad is barely home now. He works midnights. |
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| Al | Apr 13 2006, 03:12 PM Post #138 |
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Our school was too poor to afford showers. Or gym clothes. He just ogled everyone and flirted with some of the students. He once told us to close our eyes and do some stretches that were, um, suggestive. I kept mine open the whole time. My dad works late too, but it's different for me--I enjoy the time I get to myself, even if I have to share it with my idiot brother. |
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| Satans Spawn | Apr 13 2006, 07:22 PM Post #139 |
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Well there are a few things that're bugging me now... My father (the one who bad and abuses me) LOOKED at me the other day and I had nightmares about him, he was coming to school after me, and beating me up and stuff, and in most dreams he's holding a knife! I really REALLY hate this...really I do. I haven't had a decent sleep in donkeys! Except the other day but that was cut short because of my sister. And also, did I ever tell you guys about my two best brothers in the world that died? And my twin? And my brothers twin? Well I found pictures and video recordings of them the other day and I cried real hard. I did. And what makes it worse is that fact I got blamed! I got blamed for my big brothers death! LeeAndro! The one who commited suicide. Me! Me and LeeAndro were like BEST FRIENDS. And do you know what? It was my father! I saw it on the video! He pushed him and pushed him until LeeAndro couldn't take it any more! And then he died. I've had dreams about my brothers too. They came back to haunt me. For revenge... And right now I feel awful...I've realized something more. I may have a great step dad and a great mom and stuff but... There's empty spaces inside. If you were to look at my heart it would be shreaded. I need my brothers, I want my twin to be alive, if I hadn't lived then Ryan would be here, and what else I need is a father. A real father. You know, I've never, EVER called someone 'Dad' before. Never. It feel so nasty. I've always wanted a father that cared for me, that loved me, that would always be there for me, that would be able to see me grow up...and I don't have one. And I know I never will. And I know I can't bring people back from the dead either. So I'll cut this short. I'm more or less forever broken. The other day my friend heard about my problems. And guess what she said? If I let this happen for the rest of my life I'll grow up to be some sad little girl sitting in the corner of a mental asylum...and I don't want that. She said that she knew that I didn't want that to happen because if it did no one would ever belive it. I've always put everone and everything in front of me. When people say jump I jump. And the other day was...ugh...can't think of a word to describe it... I let someone beat the crap outta me. And you know what I did? Nothing. I wouldn't hit back. You know why? Because my big brother Bruno that died would never fight. Never. If someone hit him he'd let it happen. He said if you fight back you're just as bad, to prove that you are not afraid of what they can do is pure bravery. And I'm too loyal to forget my brothers words. But unfortunately it meant that I went home in blood stained clothes. ...I hate my life... |
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| Spazz | Apr 13 2006, 08:10 PM Post #140 |
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My dad is not abusive, but he does not live with us. We get to see him a maximum of four times a year. Satans Spawn, maybe you need counseling, or something. Who blamed you about your brother? I really don't think that's fair. I'm really, really sorry... |
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| tricksterchild | Apr 13 2006, 08:10 PM Post #141 |
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OMG. OMG. That makes me want to cry for u.
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| Satans Spawn | Apr 13 2006, 08:48 PM Post #142 |
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Thanks guys, and I've got some news, some of you may know it but.... I'm 12 years old, my Dad paid a lad to do something with me... And now I'm having twins. And I'm as scared as hell. I'm gonna call them Theo and Emmery if they're born. I'm one month in... I wanna die...NOW. Oh yeah, and the police won't do anything...I'm sick of life... |
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| The Great Alaskan Snow Dog | Apr 13 2006, 08:56 PM Post #143 |
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Satans Spawn... oh my gosh, that's HORRIBLE. I mean, seriously... your dad, your FREAKING DAD, actually PAID somebody to do... THAT... and now you're... Oh my gosh. HUG. *hugs you really tightly* I say honestly that I've never, EVER been through anything as awful as that... I know that I can't relate or understand, not really, because I can't even imagine how awful that would be. Aristotle (I think it was Aristotle, anyways) once said that we sympathize and empathize only because we don't want what we're sympathizing and empathizing about to happen to us... but Aristotle was wrong. Sure, that's true, but I know that you're a wonderful person-- yes, I can tell even from online-- and you don't deserve ANY of the junk that you have to deal with. You aren't worth dying, though. We all love you here, and it would be unspeakably awful if you died because of your traumas. I want to tell you that everything will be okay... not to be a damper or anything, but I can't do that truthfully, and I hate to lie, so I won't. I can tell you, though, that we'll always be here to support you and wish you the best. I'm sorry beyond words. If I could get my butt over to your house and hug you till the end of time... I would. And that still wouldn't be enough. I hope it works out all right... you're an incredibly strong person to deal with all that. Really, you are. |
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| AiOrikasa | Apr 13 2006, 09:00 PM Post #144 |
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Don't think like that. There is obstacles in life and I know you can finish the race. Ok I'll quit it with the metaphors and stuff. ^^ And really....... police men can be so retarded. Thos po-pos are considered to be the dirty ones that don't do their job and make some trouble. Hope you get better. |
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| Spazz | Apr 13 2006, 09:08 PM Post #145 |
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I'm so sorry, Satan's Spawn...I'm so sorry... |
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| Al | Apr 13 2006, 09:11 PM Post #146 |
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Think of you kids. Stay alive, if only for them. There is ALWAYS a reason to live, and it may not seem like it now, but those kids might be a blessing. |
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| Deadringer | Apr 13 2006, 09:23 PM Post #147 |
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Omg.... That is... That is just sick. Your DAD paid some one? I SWEAR! People are freakin' JERKS! Omg... omg.....You're 12?!?!? The kids might be good, and they could be bad. Oh man... I can't even IMAGINE livining in the life you do. Oh gosh. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to say this but, may God help you. Seriously. Don't die now. Please. Suicide is not the best way out. Have faith gal' you have my symphony. I hope that you'll feel better. Once in a while come talk to us, we'll help you through it, I solemly swear! |
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| RAB | Apr 13 2006, 09:50 PM Post #148 |
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OMG your dad did what! oh god man my dads a cop by the way and if he could he would come in a heartbeat and take your dad and ugh thats horible i mean ive bean acussed of being pregnant and all (go onto hows life treatin ya or whatever its called)and im 12 and im crying right now geese i never even imagned a father doing that ! but... dont commite suicide please dont we are all your freinds here we will help you as much as possible just hope theres always hope that every thing will get better |
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| Windshear | Apr 13 2006, 10:16 PM Post #149 |
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...I... The... I'm completly speechless. I can't even comprehend this whole situation. I'm so sorry. I've been sitting here for 10 minutes thinking of comforting words, but... We're all heref for you and I know I'm gonna be praying for you probably for the rest of my life. I know you can make it through this and please don't die. |
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| AiOrikasa | Apr 13 2006, 10:22 PM Post #150 |
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Dag and he doesn't sound like the regular Windshear that I've come to know. Anyways, your father is evil. I can't beileve a father would do that to their own flesh and blood. That's cruel. And your'e only 12 years old?! I thought you were at least 13! At least! Really your father has a problem, it's natural that you are freaked by this. You shouldn't go to a mental home your father should. Curse him. Like Windshear I'll pray for you.
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Curse him. Like Windshear I'll pray for you.

3:48 AM Jul 11