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The bad stuff; Suicide, cutting, smoking, etc
Topic Started: Jan 21 2006, 11:09 PM (3,345 Views)
Sweet_Devil135
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I'm not sure if I'm allowed to post this, but I think we need a topic about this. If you know anyone who is cutting/thinking of killing themselfs/drinking/smoking/etc discuss it here. Is it right? Are you trying to stop it? Are you doing any of these things? Do you need help? Or do you want to give advice to those out there who need help? What is your opinion about these things?

Share your problems, advice, opinions, and stories here. I'm aware there is a topic about drinking (Thanx to Jason) but this is not only about drinking, but all the bad things out there. You can discuss drinking in the other topic. If you know anyone or think anyone is doing any of these things, you can talk about it here.
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This topic is a rather sensitive topic to me really...I've tried comitting suicide 14 times. I don't care about life, all I want is for people to be happy, and know that, that same happiness will still be there even if I do die.

In one of my posts I put 'I slit my-I don't want to disturb anyone' but since this topic is about that kind of stuff then I will tell you guys because I want to stop. I slit my arms 9 times, my wrists once, I thought of slitting my leg once and I've jumped infront of 3 cars and 1 bus all of which stopped.

I haven't really been able to feel much emotion, it's a sort of thing I have wrong with me, the only thing I've ever felt is fear, love and depression, sure, people have seen me smile but I have no idea what emotion it is that I'm feeling when I do smile. Oh yeah, and I always have that thing for death.

The reasons I do the things I do is because I haven't had a good past, a Christmas with my brother Bruno and LeeAndro was something to look forward to but when they died my life just fell apart and I just became...emotionless almost. I also have an abusive father and I'm forever bullied at school.
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OMG how sad...I also had a terible past. But im not going to go and talk about it. To painfull.
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I am really, really sorry you had to go through that. I would give you hug right now but I cant so have a cyber hug. :glomp: I just want you to know that we are all here for you and you are our friend. Like with what BB said to Raven, you think you're alone but you are not. You have us. :console:
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Yeah what Hunter17 said...You still have us!This kind of thing is terrible.and whats worse is the fact that half my family does drugs and drinks and smokes and crap like that.I'm scared I'm gonna end up doing it. :cry:
"Smile, what's the use of crying?" -Charlie Chaplin "Smile."
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you can only do it if you choose to, no one can force you to do it. As long as you want to keep away from it, you can. *sigh* I want to help you guys so much but I dont know what I can do. :cry:
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Just talk and give advice.thats the most u can do.
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:cry: yeah what they said!
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Jan 22 2006, 05:06 AM
This topic is a rather sensitive topic to me really...I've tried comitting suicide 14 times. I don't care about life, all I want is for people to be happy, and know that, that same happiness will still be there even if I do die.

That's usually how I feel.

Once, a year ago this May, something bad happened to me. I'm not gonna say what, 'cuz it's really too painful to talk about it, but suffice to say it hurt me alot inside. I spent weeks on end doing nothing, I was just...empty. And my family did nothing but complain to me. They kept telling me that I had problems and if I didn't start being happy, they would send me to counciling. Can you believe that? It's not just something I can turn on and off.

Anyway, after a while, my whole mindset kinda got warped, and I figured that I was unnessecary (damn my spelling!). I decided that without me, people could easily replace me, and that my life did nothing but bother other people. So I decided to drown myself in the San Diego river--a convenient 8-minute walk away from my house. Or get kidnapped and mutilated before dying a gruesome death, either way...

I'm still here, though, because someone--a close friend of mine--gave me a reason to live, and for that I am eternally grateful to her.

SatansSpawn, I wish there was something we all could do. Hell, if it were up to me, I'd :chair: your father 'till the cows come home, and then I'd turn him over to everybody else on this forum. But what these guys are saying is true--even though we may not be with you physically, we're still your friends.

Unless there's a stalker somewhere in here. Start the inquiry!

And since nobody got that, shutting up now.
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Wow thanks guys *glomps* :thanks: you really helped...^^

I'm really sorry for those who also have had a bad time, I feel like crying right now :cry:

I hope it all works out for you guys, really I do
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That's...horrible, Satans Spawn. I read in some places after trying to comit suicide you realise you really REALLY want to live again. Although you might be bullied and have an abusive father, you can still grow up to have a happy life. Besides, we're your friends, and we're here for you, although we don't know you. EDIT: And I hope it works out for you too. :welcome:

My uncle died, then my grandma...and I was REALLY close to them. Then my mom (Who didn't drink in about 10 years) did anyway. She did it on holidays, and even on Thanksgiving. Then she went to rehab for a nice LOOOONG month. My father yells a lot, and when he found out that my oldest sister used to get high and smoke, he screamed so loud, I was really afraid. Luckly she got over it but her friends didn't.

One time when my parents were out, and it was just my two sisters and I (I have no brothers), these people, who were my oldest sister's friends, bardged into our house, got high, smoked, ate ALL of our food (And the pizza we were going to have for dinner) and trashed our house. My middle sister and I ran into the front yard and hid in a tree for an HOUR. My oldest sister...was sadly, a part of it.

And while me, my middle sister and parents were out in New York, my oldest sister who said she needed to stay because of school and volley ball LET a party be held at our house. Well, actually, people bradged in cuz they knew we were going to be gone and stole some of our cups, our Playstation 2, three of our playstation games, our memory card, a skateboard, and weirdly one of my stuffed animals. O.o

And now I'm afraid to go on a vacation for fear that may happen again. And a couple years ago, my sister (Yes, oldest) held a house party, and the police actually came, because there was fights, and weed involved. I fear for the party on February fourth my opther sister is going to hold.

There's much more I have to talk about, but I'm going to put it all into one word.

Depression.

I have depression, and so it isn't easy for me to feel happy. I mean, I try to during my friends, but...I just can't. I usually isolate myself in my room, going on the computer. I'm trying to get rid of it the best I can, but there's a friend problem that I posted in the Friendships thread...I'll copy and paste it here.

One of my friends...she's...REALLY depressed. Everyone makes fun of her religion (She doesn't celebrate anything, not even birthdays), and is mean to her, and they always say "WHY DIDN'T YOU DO THIS?" She sticks up to herself though, but always asks me- "Do you think I should do this homework?"

Even some people who are friends to her (One other person other then me) are mean to her. I asked my friend if she has a computer so I can to talk to her about anything. She said she didn't have an e-mail. My other friend said "If you have a computer, then you MUST have an e-mail." My depressed friend replied:

"I have a computer, but it doesn't mean I have to have an e-mail!"

She always says she does homework over the weekend, and how she doesn't want to go home because her parents will yell at her. I'm EXTREMLY worried about her. I bet you ANYTHING that she's been thinking about killing herself at least two times. I know this because I have a HORRIBLE feeling. I don't want her to end her life or anything. I just have to show her at least ONE person cares for her.

Ya...I wrote a lot.
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Most of the stuff said is what I've been doing. But it's not from depression.

I have asperger syndrome. It's a disease that makes the person act unusual and he has no idea how to control himself. I really have a hard time making choices and I get easily frusterated and I have a hard time doing homework. Going on the computer instead of doing homework relives the stress...but I still have to do homework anyway.
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Things on my plate:
*An abusive (menetal and physical) mother
*Senior year and barely graduating
*Hiding my homosexuality from family and friends (only 3 of my friends outside the 'net know).
*Maniac depression

I wouldn't hide the fact that I've attempted suicide four times, or that I've gotten high to try to get rid of the pain. But guess what people? IT DOESN'T HELP.

The only thing in this world that you can truly depend on is yourself. It's up to you to stay strong, accept your surroundings and run with it.

I could have killed myself or continued my drug use, but what good would that have done? Nothing. The Devil would have gotten the best of me. You can choose to sit in the corner and cry, or die trying.

I'd rather die trying.
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I'm really sorry for you guys. I appreciate stuff must have been hard for you. I hope things are getting better.

Jason, your attitude is really inspiring - I think everyone could learn from that.

I've had stuff but I dont really want to talk about it. All I know is that I'm going to graduate from Uni and get where I want to be.

That way I'll know that my life is worth a damn...and I'm not going to give up.
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Truly sorry for all of you. Its always hard for me to believe people go through such pain in their life. I've never gone through anything like this, I'm living life happily.

Last year, my best friend was forced into some bad stuff. Cutting her arm basically, nothing deep but mere scars. She showed em to me and I just erupted. She slowly became a mess as problems in school were comin up but thankfully I was there and helped her through it all. Now we're all livin happily.

I can never bear such horrible things, but friends are always there for ya. If you dont have any friends in school or such, you got ur online buddies, they're no different. I have made so many great friends online, I've made even best friends online. Instead of hangin together at school, we're hanging online on forums and such.

Just dont look at ur life knowing tht u r not worth anything. But like ChibiRaven said, all ur lives are worth a damn. There really is bright side to it all, may be hard to find but its there. Example, back in my old school I was so alone, i had friends, not exactly true friends though, and I wasnt happy. When i came to my new school, I am living such a perfect life. The greatest friends, online friends as well, yadda yadda yadda. My life didnt invovle any 'bad stuff' but i did finally found happiness for myself.

Jason, ur hiding from everyone that ur gay?? Are you afraid theyre not going to accept it? I mean i think that is so wrong! They should accpet you no matter what. I just cant believe such matter, where one is never accepted. But for one thing I agree with ChibiRaven, ur attitude is really inspiring ^^
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