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T-Fox
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N-Nopony! Ah was talkin' to nopony whatsoever!
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Nobody seemed even remotely fazed by her speech. At all. Nothing that she had just said had rung true for anyone down there. They were going to have to find out the hard way.

There was nothing she could d-

"Okay, here's what we do. Tiff, put your gun down."

Wait, maybe she had gotten through to someone! This kid... No, she actually had no idea who it was. But this kid was actually trying to defuse the situation.

"You, I take it that now there's no point in asking if you want to stick around, or in getting you to throw your own gun away. You wanna go, go. But if I even see you think about turning round and shooting us, you'd better be good. Cause I'll come after you if you miss, and I'll make you wish that you'd never been born."

Nope. She sighed. Still trying to be tough, still doing everything he could to be a bad-ass. Still, he WAS trying to make tensions calm. She... Guessed that was a start?

Now all she could do was sit and watch, and hope that this Tiffany girl actually put down the gun. If she did and the other kid left, she had done something right.

But what else could she do? If they didn't listen, she would have to live with their blood on her hands too. She would be responsible... She wouldn't have been good enough to save them from themselves. In her twisted, breaking mind, that constituted sole responsibility. It would be a disservice to everyone who had ever cared about her in the past and everyone that she had ever interacted with not to save every single life that she came across.

But why? Why was it her responsibility?

It had to have been because I because you fell prey to this 'game'. This is why it is your responsibility to save everyone you can. It is the only way you can attone for what you have done, it is the only way you can make up for the wrongs you have committed. Doing the right thing isn't easy, but if you're strong and you keep trying you ca- No, I need to go hide. I need to get away from everything. This is just going to make things worse and I'm going to die without ever having a chance to say goodbye to my family and friends and I'm never going to see the states again and I need to just curl up in a ball and sleep my fi- nal days must be spent making the world a better place, one person at a time. Any little difference you can make is a difference for the better. And you need to get the hell over yourself and keep talking. They've heard your name over the announcements, they'll listen. If the killer is telling them how much they will regret things, they will just fucking shoot me! What's wrong with me, the only thing I can do is go back to the killing. If you do that then you can get the fuck off this island and you'll still be a murderer either way. Maria's death made you deserve to die, so you need to spend that time as alone as I possibly can, just hiding and trying to save people from the hell which follows you everywhere you go. Your life brings pain to those around you, that fate has been made permanent since you did that one deed that will never be attoned for, but you need to try. What good was her death if you can't continue on with your old course of action? Her death was in vain if you don't live. She would have wanted me to just go die alone, whenever it comes. She doesn't care about me, she never will. Thinking she would have is so self inflating that it just proves how badly you will hurt others by being alive. You should just off yourself right now, and not even take the chance that anyone else will find you again or I might kill again and be unable to control yourself and WHAT IS GOING ON?!?!?!?

Jackie collapsed into a ball, her hands clutching her head in pain, her mind swimming. Only maybe a quarter of the conversation in her head was under her control. Three different attitudes screamed at her, and she just wanted it all to go away. She wanted to curl up and be alone; something she would never in her life be again. It was as if she was nothing but a topic of debate, her feelings not mattering. In absolute terror and confusing, she began to writhe on the ground, closing her eyes and scraping her nails against the sides of her head. Her mind felt so overly full, almost to the point of bursting. She couldn't breathe, and the pressure in her head was so incredibly painful she just needed out.

So many voices, so many opinions, but one host.

"GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!"

This spasm went on for longer than she would actually ever know. The other kids down below would see and hear all of this, and Jackie would never know what they did and how they would react. All she knew for sure was that something was broken. And that things were never going to go back to the way they were.
Edited by T-Fox, Nov 2 2010, 10:26 AM.
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